Dear You,

Today, my mood swing attacked again. Today was supposed to be a practice of our music ministry for the songs on Sunday. It all started when the instrumentalists just kept on practicing, and me, being the singer, was just sitting there with nothing to do.

This has been one of my identified weaknesses. I hate waiting with nothing to do. Especially today, not only time was wasted but also my money. Being a student again, I do not ask for money from my parents anymore since I was able to save something from my past work. But my resources are almost depleting, and today, I just borrowed money from my Lola so that I could have the fare I needed to go to church.

I know I was the one wrong in this scenario. Not only did I show my sour face, but in a way I disrespected my leader as well.

To my future husband. This is me. And I am not liking it. If ever the time comes that the mood swing of mine will attack again (and you are able to witness it), I pray that you would not leave me. But instead, rebuke me correctly and lead me into the right path. This is my weakness and I am not proud of it, but please help me so that God will be able to work freely in my life. And I hope that someday, I would be able to overcome this.

I am deeply sorry for what I have caused my leader in the ministry. And most of all, sorry Lord, for I let my emotions eat me up again.

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